I call it destiny, destiny at its best....

I don’t know why..?
I don’t know why I am feeling the way I am feeling ….. Somehow things are not the way, they used to be…
Am I giving my heart too much  importance, than I should… don’t know things are in such a mess these days

Why does mind always have to have the answer for things that are hard to answer…
There are times when you don’t find words to express what you are going through. You meet new people every now and then…. Some of them you don’t remember or don’t want to, but some of them just refuse to go out of your mind……no matter how hard you try ....

And its like being in a situation when your head and heart pull you into opposite directions and you just can’t decide what to do?? It almost feels as if you are being torn into two parts…..

and I feel I am in a similar situation... I got in touch with him around 7 months ago because of my job,, we had to speak often, almost hours to fine tune the process we were working on...

and I dint even realize when did it start happening...

when I realized, I tried not to get into this......though my whole being screamed in protest and I had to give up ....finally
He is so unlike others, an absolute charmer…
Intelligent and sensible, yet gentle and respectful…..
And above all, understands me totally…………….without me saying a word!!!

Still not able to believe this….but it is true….We have not met....yet
Never thought this could happen to me…..ever.
But it is indeed………

but sometimes I feel so cheap inside for we both are married ...or I should say happily married with our respective partners...and we are not even looking for fun outside, this is more of a psychological escape...during our 7 month old relationship we have never spoken saucy or about things that seems natural to peoople who believe such relations are formed just for obvious reasons...

but somehow this overwhelming guilt is killing me..